Month: May 2025

Move to Your Own Beat (Days 4 & 5)

Years ago, one of the first things I would do in the morning when I was home besides the obvious of brewing coffee was to start Pandora and rock out to music. Even back when I started this blog I mentioned how my happy place is dancing in my kitchen while baking. Sometime in the past few years the habit of starting music in the morning disappeared. Sure, there are days I do but with both of us home all the time and with Scott working at home maybe I subconsciously became over-accommodating about the noise. Even though not once did he ask me to turn down music.

The healthier version of me I’m trying to be means taking back the pieces that make me happy… that make me, me. I am actively trying to retrain my brain to start music again. Yesterday I woke up with Dave Matthews Where are you Going in my head so as I started Spotify before I even started the coffee.

I started laundry and then Coffee Bean and I danced and played… even though she totally wasn’t feeling it (she didn’t sleep much the night before) but I was also keeping her occupied while Scott was spraying the downstairs for spiders.

This look totally says it all.

The jam/dance sessions were amazing yesterday morning as I followed up with doctors and cleaned and I even got my pilates video in! The basics kick my ass and it’s hard not to be discouraged but I keep reminding myself that even if I can’t hold the pose or lift my leg as high it is still better than doing nothing. A healthier version of me is not just working on my body but my mind as well. It will always be easier to focus on the things that I can’t do and then that becomes my path with negativity guiding my way. It is harder to put in the work and I am so proud of myself for realizing that I need to be the change for myself and walk the path that brings me to a better healthier body, mind and soul and and… to move to my own beat. I totally can and will do this.

After pilates I grabbed a fresh cup of coffee and sat at the table with my computer thinking I’d sit and write my blog in between moving and folding laundry. I boosted the music on the speakers and then… everything went quiet. Our power went out as did some of our neighborhood. Oy. That’s ok, I needed a shower anyway and candlelit showers are peaceful.

After Scott’s run and his candlelit shower we decided to go to lunch and set plans for grabbing computers and working from a brewery if the power wasn’t back on when we got home. It was! So back to tasking I went. I got most of our laundry done and finished cleaning upstairs before then focusing on dinner for the Av’s game. But, sadly I didn’t have a chance to sit back at the computer and write.

Scott, Ashlynn, me and Sam before heading downstairs for the game

We did have a tasty dinner and cheered and held our breathe as we held out hope that the Av’s could fight their way to a game 7…. and they did! Game 7 will be Saturday, thankfully after the walk!

Last night on my way to bed I was sore and realized I had totally overdone it… my feet were burning, my fingers were tingling and my legs didn’t want to work correctly so I mentally started to prepare myself for a complete rest day today which was totally not on my agenda. Sleep was harder as I woke several times as my body ached and my nerve-endings were going crazy.

Thankfully I woke (much earlier than I wanted) wanting to do pilates. I let the doggo outside, started coffee and then went downstairs and laid out the yoga mat. I stretched… oh did I stretch! My body was still sore so there were points in those 18 minutes that I was ready to give up and I almost did. My inner monologue was a major cheering section.

I laid like this a bit after the workout

After pilates I started music. Today’s music of choice… Billy Strings.

I have been writing on and off all morning as my brain gets scattered wanting to jump ahead and work on getting ready for tomorrows walk and finish the laundry that didn’t get done yesterday. The “oh look a squirrel” has been quite active today. I have played with the doggo, contemplated going and getting orange fabric paint, tried on socks for tomorrow, put in the orange hair extensions from last year to see if I remembered how to do it, played with glitter. Yep, scattered. Tonight I’m going to the year-end school choir performance for my niece so I’m trying to get everything done before heading to her concert.

Thank you reading my ramblings today. I started yesterday with a point to this post and then, as it is more often than not, it becomes more of a journal/diary of sorts. I guess that really is me… moving to my own beat.

Peace and love my friends and as always, happy cups.

Day 3- Confidence Building

Oh my goodness, friends! I woke up at 6:30 (that in itself isn’t unusual) and I was motivated! Today, I actually needed to work (that is unusual). I was subbing for Sunshine at her BNI networking group that meets in the tech center. As you may or may not know, I work very part-time for an amazing photographer, Sunshine, and her photography business, Silver Sparrow Photography ,as an at home office assistant. Today was a rare instance that I not only was working but I was doing so outside the house.

And because I didn’t want to lose momentum in controlling my narrative, I was up and motivated… motivated to be on my yoga mat… and I was on the mat by 7:10! I did the pilates video again (I like this video and probably will stick with this one a bit until I feel like I can do all poses correctly), and even though my body was tired and sore I was so proud of myself for sticking with it today.

I was out of the shower, dressed and styling my hair before 8:30. I danced around to my favorite “give me confidence” music… Illenium… while getting ready and even remembered to take time for my coffee and pills. 

I’ve been struggling a lot with my self-image and confidence with my weight gain, and today, well, today, I feel like I slayed it! Which, in turn, helped me feel confident in speaking in front of the networking group.

This BNI group was amazing! They were so welcoming and supportive of each other’s businesses. I can see why Sunshine likes this group. But what put them on top for me was I got snuggles from a doggo. And of course, in true Corrine fashion, I introduced myself to the doggo first (Archie) and then found out the owners name and business after (Jessica-massage therapy).

I was also mesmerized by these light fixtures within the conference room.

On my way home from the meeting, I stopped by the store and picked up a refill of my ever growing stack of medications and a couple other things and several bunches of flowers. I found orange roses as my base and was able to find a wide variety of flowers to make a stunning bouquet 💐 of oranges, pinks and purples. Which is great for this week as Orange is the color for the MS support ribbons and the MS Walk is Saturday.

While I made the bouquet, Scott prepped and cut veggies for us to have a quick salad lunch before hopping on our couples therapy session. We have been seeing our therapist since last year as the weight of my diagnosis and other life challenges seemed to have built up. I love normalizing therapy. Just because you are in therapy doesn’t mean things are horrible it just means that you are recognizing there’s a shift and you’d rather address them and work through them rather than ignore them letting it grow and fester. Scott and I wanted to address our communication style and quality time, especially as my diagnosis now puts Scott in a caregiver role once in a while. Our session today was the first in over a month and a half as we’ve had to reschedule a few times.

We’ve been on the cusp of not needing our therapist anymore and today before our session, we realized that even with the craziness of these past few weeks we haven’t felt a disconnect from each other, so today we made the decision that today’s session would be our last. Our therapist, Samantha, is amazing and is so excited for us. She’s been our champion and has told us from the beginning how wonderful it is to see a couple so in love with each other and that it was the highlight of her week to see us.

I love that we continue to work on us… both as individuals and as a couple. Yay us!

We went and visited Scott’s mom this afternoon. I still feel so fortunate that our lives now let us support our parents. All our years of shift work and not being available and now we have the flexibility to help and visit. Scott said recently that what he loves most about this time is to be able to hear the stories… I think we forget how much importance stories have.

Then, this evening, we were able to curl on the couch and enjoy each other while watching the Great British Bakeoff. It’s been a few days since we’ve had downtime so it was nice to relax. Plus, thinking of stories… we got to have several laugh until almost pee moments with Ashlynn and our “other daughter” Faith as they were showing us photos and filling us in on the past few days.

I’m sleepy as I meant to write this earlier today, and now here it is past midnight. Tomorrow brings laundry day for me, and I’m making a taco ring for dinner so we can watch game 6 of the Avs/Stars playoff hockey. I hope that the morning brings more opportunities to build my confidence, for now… it’s bedtime. I’m excited to listen to the rain as I fall asleep.

As always, peace and love my friends and enjoy your cups ☕️

(I had to go back in and revise a bit…I fell asleep while writing this last night and didn’t read through before posting).